Sunday, March 18, 2012
Happy weekend friends! I thought I would provide a weekend update as I have more time to sit in front of my lap top. Here is the current skinny:
1. I am down 175 pounds. I have gone from a size 28 pre-op to a size 12/14 depending on where I shop. My currently favorite NSV ("non scale victory" for those of you who don't speak the lingo) is that I am wearing clothes from Ann Taylor Loft and I had never stepped foot in there before. I have new underwear from Victoria's Secret and I haven't shopped there in YEARS! I've finally lost a cup size (people generally lose a lot from the chest after surgery but until now I only lost inches around) and am now a D instead of a DD woohoo! I won't go into the actual state of my girls as it is a sad one but at least they are still making an appearance. I remember being pre-op and listening to people on support forums talking about extra skin and saggy boobs...guess what, I don't care that my chest looks like tennis balls in tube socks, I feel fabulous! Shopping is a whole new world for me. Last time I was small enough to wear cool clothes I was a teenager so obviously I am not shopping where I did back then. I have to find all new places to shop and start thinking about how a size in one story is not the same in another. It's still tiring to shop and I'm not sure I am in love with it yet, but it feels good to have more options, even if I am overwhelmed by them.
2. I totally think and act like a smaller person! I bitch about not fitting in clothes, work outs, eating too much or the "wrong things" (even though my daily eating is healthy, we all know our skinny friends bitch about stuff like this all the time), and I catch myself looking at my reflection in store windows as I pass by. Now, I am not "into" myself by any means but I remember always teasing one of my best friends about mirror envy in high school and she will yell at me for posting this but I catch myself doing it now too! It't not because I love looking at myself or because I think I am all that, it's because I can't believe what I see and the more evidence I actually "see" to the contrary, the more I can believe that I have come this far and I can do this...forever and ever and ever and never go back. I complain that I don't work out enough and I could be doing more and at the same time am out for miles and miles of walks with my dogs that I couldn't have done 15 months ago. Along the same lines of thinking like a healthy person (I can't say skinny because there are many skinny people who are not healthy), I really think about food. I think about food in a smart and effective way. I am the protein shake queen around here when it comes to saying over and over like a broken record that protein shakes can be good for you AND taste good! I post my protein shake recipe all the time in hopes that people will see it, try it and realize that one of the best ways to lose is to bump up your daily protein numbers, especially after a workout or before bed when your body needs to keep working and digesting overnight so it doesn't shut down. A basic shake for me includes a scoop of fuzzy navel or chocolate truffle powder (23 grams of whey protein isolate, no sugar, no carb, 100 calories), 1/2 cup of milk (soy for extra protein) and 1/3 frozen banana (I keep a bag of these in my freezer all peeled and ready to go). From there the add ins are different. On days that I am not using the shakes as meal replacements and I need some extra protein, I simply use a scoop with milk or water in my shaker cup. Sometimes I even add 1/4 cup plain greek yogurt if I want extra protein. Here are examples of meal replacement or after gym shakes:
Fuzzy Navel Protein Shake:
*1/3 frozen banana
*3-4 strawberries or 1/4 cup raspberries (frozen or thawed)
*1/2 cup milk
*1 TB SF FF instant jello pudding powder (vanilla or banana cream flavor)
*1/4 cup plain greek yogurt *totally optional*
*1 TB SF torani syrup (vanilla, raspberry, etc.)* totally optional*
*One scoop Syntrax chocolate truffle powder (or any chocolate protein powder you like!)
*1/3 frozen banana
*2TB PB2 powdered peanut butter or 1TB PB2 and 1TB real peanut butter (I like the balance of real pb with the pb2 lower calories and higher protein)
*1/2 cup milk
*1 TB SF FF instant jello pudding powder (chocolate fudge or white chocolate flavor)
Hope you enjoy!! The sugar free, fat free instance pudding powder is essential for a milkshake thick shake, makes it all worthwhile!
3. To get back to the updates...I can and WANT to do things I wouldn't have or couldn't have before. Yesterday we parked in the village of Liverpool by this coffee shop that is super cute, and walked the half mile to my grandparents house instead of driving right there. That way, we would have to walk back to the car and then I could reward myself with a sugar free soy latte while walking down to the lake and around the park. My grandfather helped build Johnson park in the village of Liverpool and his family is the reason there is a willow museum there too. I never would have just walked around the village, parked away from their house and walked anywhere without someone having to twist my arm. Yesterday I did all of that on my own desires. I could have stayed out all day, it was so beautiful out! After a beautiful walk, the deck furniture came out AND the basketball saw some action in the driveway. It was never ending fun and I felt healthy, young and so free! My roller blades WILL be seeing the light of day this year!